What would you do if you lost all your possessions?
Humble MySELF… give THANKS for what I had… BE patient and know… remember My Purpose and Potential is greater than My Past Pains and Problems 😘💜🦋
What is meant for me will always and forever BE for ME! Love & Wisdom
BrandCamille
Day 3 of Year 51
Today’s entry is a little late (8+hrs) … I used the time wisely and got some much needed rest. Working a day job and covering an occasional overnight audit will drain the body quicker than partying for 3 straight days – trust me, I’ve got plenty of comparison data! Lol
However comma the need to post and keep putting myself out here is paramount to the forward progress of My Purpose Driven mission. The past few days have been a rollercoaster of emotions, thoughts and revelations. I’m at another crossroad, actually more like a fork in the road, and have to make a decision on which path to take. Again, I subconsciously hear my relative asking ‘why can’t you keep a job?’ And again I must speak to My Soul and remind mySELF that these j.o.b.s can NOT keep ME! It’s scary to think about the number of individuals who have to ‘keep a job’ to just pay bills and provide a mediocre “society affirming” life for their families. While the ones who approve and sign your paycheck are taking their families on multi-million dollar vacays and living in communities where you don’t fit in! Make it make sense…
Hell, I can’t even make it make sense. My children are all adults now, and they are choosing their own paths to their Purpose Driven mission. Please note how I don’t use the term ‘success’. That term is so fluid, and pressure loaded, that I choose not to use it when describing the future of My Village and I. We have setbacks and process, all of which are lessons and requirements to ensure Our Village Empire/Collective keeps going forward along the Purpose Driven mission.
I AM grateful for the BEautiful Ones who have either crossed by or walked side-by-side along my life journey path! It’s because of them I AM able to confidently and with faith close one door, knowing that there are other doors and windows waiting to BE opened. I KNOW that the Blessings made just for me, will eventually reach ME.
Why can’t YOU keep a job? Why can’t a j.o.b keep ME? WE are each other’s keepers!
I AM YOU and YOU ARE ME 😘💜🦋
Brand Camille
Day 2 of Year 51
“Sandra, why can’t you keep a job?” asked my elder. I mean, that wasn’t their only question, but in essence it was. They asked how I was doing and I told them I was maintaining and then jokingly said, I probably have changed 3-4 jobs since we last spoke. (Keep in mind, we spoke in June) There was no concerns shown towards my mental health, my physical well-being, or even my financial situation just the jaw dropping eye opening question… “Sandra, why can’t you keep a job?”
Normally that question would have gone without being addressed because I would have felt like shit and silently started questioning my own self worth and abilities. But yesterday was different! I realized that my family has always placed me into a box of perpetual judgment and misunderstanding. They have never really taken the time to “see” me for who I am or who I am capable of BEing. It’s always been a comparison to others in my family. This person has this, that person has that, yet none of the stories tell of any of them following their dreams and purpose. Everyone’s success is measured by what they have and who they marry.
Well I don’t have a fancy car, house or toys; and I’m not married or even in a monogamous committed relationship. So does that make me a failure?!? Hell NO! I’m not a failure and the fact that I’m still waking up every morning to a new day shows me that My Purpose has not been fulfilled yet, and I have another chance at making that happen.
So I corrected that relative (respectfully) and told them that “these j.o.b.s can’t keep ME!” If they are not in alignment with My Purpose Driven Path and don’t recognize My Contributing Worth, then there is no reason for me to stay. My Mental Well-being takes precedence over a paycheck. Especially when said paycheck doesn’t cover the ever rising cost of living.
Yep, that was another Universe-given sign! They tend to drop outta the sky after you acknowledge the first few.
So, are YOU ‘keeping a job’? Or is that job keeping YOU from finding and taking the path of your Purpose Driven Life? Think about that question before answering.
Remember your Purpose and Potential…
I AM YOU 😘💜🦋
BrandCamille
Day 1 of Year 51…
Yesterday I celebrated my 51st trip around the Sun. The past year has given me a clearer view of what that actually means. While it is referenced as my BIRTH day, I’ve come to realize that a person has many BIRTH days along this Journey called Life. How you grow and what you learn fron those births is vital to the process of traveling around the Sun.
Everyday I ask for a sign to show me if I’m on the right path and if I’m serving my true purpose. Ironically, when I get those affirmation signs I find myself questioning whether I’m strong enough, good enough, or even worthy enough to carry out the mission. Am I a hypocrite? Is my Purpose Driven vision as blurred as my earthly vision? Do I really understand how to walk by Faith and not by Sight?
My goal is to ‘help others help themselves’. Butterfly Effect is meant to be my way of doing that. I won’t lie and say it comes natural. It should, but the human side of me makes it more complicated some days. I want to spend days and nights just helping others see their potential and learning how to flap their own wings. But then ‘reality’ kicks me down and tells me to conform to how society thinks I should BE.
Well, I can’t keep traveling around the Sun if I don’t start taking advantage of BIRTHdays and prove to mySELF that My Purpose and Potential IS Greater Than My Past Pains and Problems.
If I write, you will read. If I talk, you will listen. If I cry, will you care?
I AM YOU!!!
BrandCamille 😘💜🦋
Your purpose and potential is greater than your past pains and problems…. What does that really mean? Who am I really saying that to, and why am I trying to convince them of this statement? Why do I keep telling folks this and yet I have such a hard time applying it to my own life? Were MY past pains and problems even that big to begin with? Maybe I am so focused on My Perception of the past, that I fail to realize that I am presently living in MY Purpose and Potential season right now!
How should I introduce folks to The Story of Camille (again)? Guess ‘in the beginning’ would be the best starting point, eh… But which ‘begining’ should I use to tell you MY STORY??? (To be continued)
5/15 – I started a (new to me) thing this week! I have made a commitment to going to therapy! While the journey is somewhat private, it would be a disservice to my BEloved if I didn’t share some space along this Journey. In the first 45mins of my intake it was already determined that I have a lot of baggage to unpack, as well as quite a bit of self reflections to do so that I can begin to SEE mySELF once again.
Funny side note: I really don’t recognize my own worth sometimes. While it took me over 4months to make an appointment, it only took 10mins of conversation for my therapist to make a suggestion that could possibly change my career trajectory! AMAZING! LOL
So lets buckle up, feel the seat beneath us, and prepare for this new adventure- Camille’s Journey To Healing
#PurposeAndPotential #BrandCamille #2020Vision
I love talking to people!! Actually I love listening to people. Their stories help shape my appreciation of the human species here on this planet.
Over the years, while holding conversations with various folks, I find myself using phrases that are not only thought provoking but also catchy. While some of the phrases are not original, with a little tweaking they still serve a purpose to the conversation. Today I would like to share a few of my commonly used colloquialisms…
If it ain’t Fucking, Feeding or Financing YOU… — I tell this to my associates when they chat with me about having a hard time with a loved (lust) one. It is pretty much self explanatory. Don’t get upset with someone for not treating you well, especially if they aren’t doing ALL three of the Fs. You will also realize where others stand with you when you are not providing ALL 3 Fs to them. This holds a lot of weight with a lot of young couples in toxic relationships. I realize that being in a relationship isnt going to be all unicorns and rainbows. However comma if you find yourself getting depressed, mad or angry over how you are being treated- its good to remember the 3 Fs and govern your reactions accordingly.
Having one of the 3Ps will keep you and your children from going hungry — Peanuts, Popcorn or Pussy. I chuckle every time I use this phrase to my sisters/daughters/Village Queens. This was told to me by one of my older cousins many moons ago! She was asking for some money, and I didn’t have any to give, I was still worried about her well-being. She smiled at me and said this phrase. At the time, I was young and naive, so I took it literally. LOL she didn’t have any peanuts or popcorn sooooo,,,, But once I became a mother/surrogate, I realized that ‘peanuts and popcorn’ also referred to talents and skills. Yes, pussy meant pussy, duh!! However comma, having a skill or talent gives you something else to provide in order to get the finances you and your family need to survive. I even found mySELF using this phrase to a case worker when she asked me how I was able to care for my child without using the welfare system.
Pusher, Preacher, Politician — Here is another 3P reference I was taught and use from time to time. It refers to the life cycle. My pops used to say this in reference to Black Men. As I matured and interacted with a more diverse crowd, I notice this phrase applies to more than just the Black Man (and even beyond just men). If you are a bit older, think back on a typical life cycle. We start in life ‘pushing’ something. Whether it is our skills, talents or products- we are pushing something to make money. Then comes the time in life when you reach an ‘awakening’. You may not become a pulpit preacher, but if you find yourself learning and practicing a form of spirituality, then you have reached the ‘preaching’ stage of life. The final stage is being a politician. Sometimes its a combination of all 3Ps that makes for being the best politician. I mean, how else will you be able to reach the masses to get your ‘agenda’ across unless you know how to sell a product that you believe in?
Keep Living… — this is what my mother used to say to me. Truth be told, I hated this phrase growing up. But once again, after becoming a mother/surrogate it became painfully clear what this saying truly means. Whenever my actions/thoughts/words are questioned by a younger person- I automatically spit out this phrase to them. Following her death at the young age of 46, added another twist to the phrase. I mean, how else will you fully experience the lessons of this life unless you Keep Living?
It Takes a Village… — Being a single mother, one comes to realize real quick that it takes a whole village to help raise your children positively. Anyone who says they can do it all by themselves is lying to themselves. I take this phrase to heart, because I personally have witnessed the phenomenal wonders of villages supported by Beautiful Soul Tribes. These Villages present to the world Power-filled Kings and Queens who are determined and focused on the works needed to create Collective Empires! They overstand the assignment to ‘Keep Living’.
Don’t plant apple seeds and expect to harvest orange trees… — Basically saying that what you reap is what you sow. A lot of folks don’t realize that what (ideas, thoughts, dreams, aspirations) they plant in their lives will produce the crop it is engineered to create. No matter what you hope for, the crop will do what it does. It is futile to hope for results that are never gonna happen. So plant with awareness and intentions so that your harvest will be of great use to you and your purpose.
Purpose and Potential … — THIS IS THE ONE! This is part of a phrase that gives me strength and hope for My future as well as the future of My Children’s Children’s Children. My oldest daughter actually has the full phrase tatted on her arm- she is way bolder than I ever could be. The full phrase is ‘Your Purpose and Potential is Greater than Our Past Pain and Problems’. Anytime that you find yourself feeling defeated and ready to give up, try to remember that no matter what happened in the past, you are still living towards your purpose and you have the potential needed to fulfill it!
Those are a few of my commonly used phrases. Those who know me, most likely have heard one or two of them. If I have ever used a phrase that encouraged/inspired/motivated you, please share in the comments below. Like I said, I love listening to people! And if my words have been of value to you in your life, please let me know… give me ‘flowers while I am living’!
This past week I celebrated the birth of my 2 daughters. My oldest daughter turned 29 and the youngest turned 21. Ironically, they are the same ages that I was when I gave birth to them (had my oldest at 21, and the youngest at 29). That makes this the 50th year of MY LIFE. HOLY FUQ!!! They (we) are getting OLD.
What a true blessing that must BE! But is it though???
The girls spent the weekend celebrating Their Life with their paternal siblings and their maternal grandfather- aka my pops. (I will discuss the irony of their selections at another time.) While they were away, I could not help but get a little ‘meh’ about this point in My Life. Yes, I know that I am far from where I began, and have so many opportunities ahead of me, enabling me to continue climbing higher than I ever imagined. Despite all of that, there will always be that lingering pain of knowing that My Mother is not here by my side to partake in these milestone celebrations. Yes, I know she is ‘here’ in spirit and heartbeat, but the physical absence sometimes overpowers the comfort in knowing otherwise.
While I will never question the motives of life and death, I sometimes cannot help but wonder what My Life could have been like if she was still here. Would my youngest daughter be here? Would my nephew and niece be here? Would my sisters and I be living separate lives in separate states, as we do now? Would we BE daughters who honor, respect and revere their MotherDear- as my cousins did towards my Aunt Louise? Would Elaine Gail Odom Seabrook BE Proud of ME?? These and many more questions float through my head on a daily basis.
During the last 4yrs, I have been constantly reminded of the painful fact that My Own Mother did not have the chance to raise 2 of her 3 daughters. When she passed on, I was 22yrs and my sisters were 12yrs and 6yrs old. So whenever I fuck up in discipline tactics or give shitty advice to the girls- I have to remind mySELF that this is NEW TERRITORY for me! I remember telling my youngest, during one of our many arguments, that she cannot expect me to know how to be a ‘good mother’ all the time, because I did not get to learn from my own mother. So I am left with the burden of teaching while learning what works and what doesn’t work. Trust me, there are more failed lessons than there are successes, however comma we are still here growing and thriving.
So all in all… Despite the pains of missing the Matriarch, BEing able to celebrate the Coming of Age of Our Young Queens does prove that YES WE ARE BLESSED!
#LeoSeason #ElainesLegacy #PurposeAndPotential #NewTerritory #BrandCamille2020AndBEyond
A few months ago we experienced June 6, 2022. If you are following the Universal/Awakening/Twin Flame activities you know the date marks the phenom known as a 6/6/6 Portal aka Era of Light. It is a time of Love, Peace, Harmony, and Compassion. It is a time of Self Reflection and Redirection (if needed). It is a time of Awareness, Acknowledgment, Acceptance, and Advancement. Basically, its a time to Level Up!
What does that mean for those of you who BElieve? What does it mean for the Soul Collective as a whole?
Reflecting back on 6/6/2022… Did you find yourself ‘fitting into’ the narrative? Or did you actually experience ‘living through’ the narrative?
As we now find ourselves in the middle of another spectacular portal opening- Lion’s Gate Portal, it is time to BE Bold! It is time to no longer be afraid of the unknown, but to take a leap of blind faith and grab hold to the wonderful mysteries of Our Futures.
#ButterflyEffect #PurposeAndPotential #BrandCamille2020AndBEyond #LionsGate8EightPortal
As I sit here thinking about the events that have taken place in my life over the last 365 days, I am reminded that…
Whatever you lost is a pre-req for what you will gain!
It’s this phrase that helps me keep a positive attitude towards my tomorrows and whatever they have in store for me.
When you think about your past year, can you see how the things/people/time lost was somewhat required for you to be in the place where you stand today?
As I sit here watching this medium size ant try to climb down from the planter to the table, I find myself encouraging him to keep trying and cheering it on because I noticed that he’s putting as much effort as he possibly can into getting off of the planter and onto the table. Then I notice a very small ant climbing on the chair I’m sitting in, next to my arm, and immediately my first reaction is to fling him off of the chair so that he does not get on me! Now how fucking ironic is that? I’m cheering on the big ant who can obviously do more damage to my plants then the little tiny ant that I would not allow to peacefully pass by my arm on the chair. Isn’t that exactly how we are in the real world? We sit back and watch some CEOs and politicians damage and destroy what we’ve created nurtured and loved, yet we still cheer them on. And then we blatantly knocked down block or discourage the little ones who are just trying to take care of themselves and probably their family. Perspective is a motherfucker!
#PurposeAndPotential #ButterflyEffect
We spend our entire Life looking for a Ride or Die Partner. But in reality, sometimes you just have to Abandon Ego and Rebirth Self in order to enjoy the Purpose Driven Journey of Your Own Life.
Brand Camille 2020 